There are times I find myself going and going and going without any sort of direction. I could be moving in circles but, as long as I’m moving, that’s all that matters. Most times, I don’t even notice that I haven’t actually gone anywhere. My boat’s at sea, but there’s no wind in the sails.
This is me without a lack of motivation. No will to move forward, no goal to achieve in mind. I could be in this mode for weeks, months, perhaps even longer. Occasionally noticing and thinking, “What have I been doing?” I may have been working, but what have I been working toward? Then return to the drifting. “I’ll get there someday.” But, where is it that I am trying to go?
“Where do I want to go?” That is a good question. “What is it that I can do to get there?” Another good question. Asking myself these questions, I can feel a little hint of a breeze. I can see the sails ripple a bit. “Aha…This could take awhile, but it is a start.” Now to find a way to make things happen.
I spend a lot of time asking myself these questions. I enjoy the slight breeze, the sound of the air moving against the sail just to enough to give me some sense of hope. Then I find something else to distract myself with and the circle continues.